Missing You / Jodi Bucknell (sister) hiya im just writing to you as im thinking of you alot today its coming up to your birthday and then its my 18th i dont knw how im going to get through it knowing that your not there in person to celebrate it, but i know you will be there in spirt!!!
i cant come to terms with you been taken away from us, you had so much going for you so much you wanted to do.
i keep thinking back to that day and how i felt when i was told it felt like my heart had benn ripped out like i had lost half of me. people try to tell me they understand but how can they when they havent been through it!!!
people seem to forget about the sibling when i lost you i didnt have another brother or sister to turn to but mum and dad still had another child, nana and grandad still had grandchildren, and the rest of the family still had cousin and newpews, the thing that i find the hardest is that im never going to be an auntie.
when people ask me if i have any brothers and sisters i dont now what to say if i tell them i have a brother they ask questions, like how old is he whats he called, i cant answer these questions without breaking down and sometimes i just want to be normal i dont want people feeling soory for me, but if i say i dont have a brother i feel so quilty like im trying to forget you, but i just want you to know that i would never do this you were always there for me if mum and dad fell out i had someone to turn to, if i was bullied at school u were there to stick up for me.
we used to always see the family nearly once a week but since youve gone its like the familys fallen apart iknow this is partly my fault aswell but it sudnt just be up to me to pick up the phone whats wrong with them coming to see me i have my own house now but know ones come to see it only one person has shown any interst in it i thought the family might of wanted to come and see it but they might do when i move back to york and get a bigger place.
love and miss you always and forever always in my thoughts love jodi xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
another christmas without you / Mum 27/12/06 Read >>
another christmas without you / Mum 27/12/06
Well Jamie. Another christmas over with, this time of year will never get any easier without you here. The pain of not having you here with us is just so unbearable. On christmas eve jodie and her boyfriend came to stay, so i cooked christmas dinner for them on christmas eve. First year we have managed to eat it, but i did christmas pudding because simon likes it, first time since loosing you, dad and I tryed to eat some but it just got stuck in our throats. Christmas pudding was one of your favorite things, and even now we cannot eat your favourite things. Dad had to go up to your room to be on his own for a while. Simon and jodie wanted to open some of there presants, that was really hard seeing another boy opening christmas presants. Christmas day we just tryed to have it as a normal day, we came to see you in the morning with our card and flowers for you, broke down and cryed for you so much, you should not be where you are but with your family who love you so much. i think next year we might have to try and get away somewhere. Jamie why did you have to be taken from us, we love and miss you so much xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Close
missing you / Jodi Bucknell (sister)
at this time of year i see my friends getting excited about christmas but all i can think about is that your not hear, i can remember our christams days we would get up about 5 in the morning and open the presents which were left on the bed then who ever was up first went to wake the other one up, then we wud creep downstairs to see how many presents we both had.
for five years now ive had to open the presents on my own but i know that in spirit you are there, you loved christmas time and you loved been the centre of attention when we had family round, you would be making jokes and telling everyone what you got, you were always so grateful and you loved all your presents not because of what you got but because of the people who had got them for you. at dinner time you would pile your plate up and eat it all then you would still have room for desert, i can remeber the mess you used to make and you said that if you make a mess while eating it shows that you enjoyed it!!! any excuse!
i love and miss you so much and although people say it gets easier for me each day gets harder to find a reason to go on xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Close
Jamie to you and yours during this holiday season / Debbie Wengert (Kevin's mom )Read >>
Jamie to you and yours during this holiday season / Debbie Wengert (Kevin's mom )
this time of year / Mum
Jamie, this time of year is so hard without you, even though i have learned to cope with the pain and heartache of not having you here. Some times of the year just do not get any easier. Christmas is so hard without you, i find it so hard been in the shops with all the christmas carols playing and seeing all the people who look so happy and who are looking forward to christmas. All the cards that have started to arrive, it is so hard without your name on them, and the ones that wish us a merry christmas, how can it be a merry christmas without our darling son. I am going to be wrapping presants up to night, that is so hard to do, not having presants to wrap for you.Never a day goes by when i dont think of what you would be doing now. I wonder if you would be out with all your mates getting drunk, i know you would be having a great time as you always wanted to have a laugh. miss you so much darling jamie all my love forever mum xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Close
Sorry.../ Charlene (School Friend )
Hi Jamie, i am sorry i havent visited you for so long. I didnt forget your angel day on the 12th but i havent been able to get onto a computer and i have been in hospital becuase i have broken my wrist, typing is hard but have found the strength for both you and my friend James Bruin who also has a memory website.
OUR SON / Mum And Dad
We have a son called Jamie, Any parents pride and joy, Although you may not know of him, He's one fantastic boy, Yes he's good looking, And we knew he'd break some hearts, But never did we imagine, How superficial, was that remark, Such a clever lad, Ambitious in every way, The world was at his fingertips, He was destined to go far some day, He studied hard to acheive his goal, And university was in his reach, He was interested in flying planes he had so many dreams, so how can we remain silent, and keep our feelings buried inside, when we want to talk about our son and all the dreams he left behind, We love and miss him more than anyone can understand, unless they too have lost a child, Because this is not the way life's planned, When we have a child we nurture them untill we die, And our biggest problem is leaving them, Even to build a home for them in the sky, You see our love is eternal, And even if they go first, our devotion never fades, Our hearts will never heal, So do not tell me to move on, or judge us for not letting go, because we have a son called jamie, every parents pride and joy. love and miss you so much mum and dad xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Close
Dear Father who art in Heaven... Please join our family on this Thanksgiving Day and bless each one as we sit down to pray as we remember those who have joined you above so dearly missed and deeply loved.
Please provide us strength on this Thanksgiving Day Bless us with memories of those faraway... Please grant patience to family and friends as we grieve and help us reach out to others who are bereaved.
We give thanks to you on this Thanksgiving Day.... For Your presence in our lives each and everyday. For Your comfort, guidance, and never ending love... And for taking care of our loved ones...in Heaven above.
As we light this candle on this Thanksgiving Day... And it glows in memory of those in Heaven today.... May their lights always shine down on us and give us light... And may we feel their presence along with yours tonight.
May the peace and tranquility of this Thanksgiving Day Be an everlasting light within each of us along the way... Lets bow our heads and give our Thanks to God above. For our blessings, whether on earth or in Heaven above... Amen
Still thinking of you x x / Becca Osguthorpe (Friend)Read >>
Still thinking of you x x / Becca Osguthorpe (Friend) Jamie, I have really been thinking of you alot recently, i know that this is probably because it was your angel day on sunday but i seem to think of you all the time. I have been feeling really low recently, feeling like things are never going to get better for me, but i always feel guilty when i think like this. i feel guilty because then i remember what your family went through losing you and all my problems seem to be so small. all i can do is cry at the moment. i came to see you on sunday, hope you like the flowers i got for you. when i come to see you, all the good memories come flooding back to me, i remember little things like the way you put on an accent when we were in french lessons, it makes me giggle again . Love becca x x xClose
Jamie's 5th angel day (tcf friend) / Funda Sibel's Mummy
I am sorry I couldnt light a candle on the day itself. Debbie I am thinking of u and your family as you pass the 5th anniversary. The day that changed your family forever.
As a bereaved parent also I know that the pain never diminshes, that time only makes it more bearable because we become accustomed to feeling so sad and full of grief.
I hope Jamie's angel day was as gentle as it could be for you all. Our thoughts and prayers are with you all.
Love to you all, especially Jamie, may his gentle soul rest in peace. X
A memory / Lauren Haynes (Friend)
Hi Jamie, Its your 5th angel day today, im sorry i never know what to say but i always feel i have to write to you and let you know that me and my family are always thinking of you. I just can't believe its been so long since we saw you, i was saying to my mum and dad last night how it only seemed like yesterday we had you, jodie and your mum and dad round for fireworks. That night was so much fun, i remember how you loved fireworks and me and Jodie were bein so silly and sayin how scared we both were then we got given sparklers and i remember me crying and my dad was tellin me to stop bein such a baby. I remember you sat down pullin faces at me and helpin our dads choose the next fireworks. I wish we could have had some more bonfire nights ... all 8 of us. It is scary now to think im older than you were and that you have been gone for 5years. I remember 5 years ago today coming home from school and me and matt were sat eating our tea watching neighbours when that horrible phone call came through... as soon as my mum answered the phone all she could do was cry so i knew straight away it was something bad ... she told me and matt and all we could do was cry... i cant believe something so tragic could happen to someone as nice, kind,witty and caring as you.. it doesnt seem right you were one of the happiest smiliest people i know you had your whole life ahead of you... its just not fair ! Anyway thinking of you and your family forever and always. Lots of love Lauren xxx Close
jamie, it is so hard to beleive it is nearly five years without you here. i really hate this time of year, the dark nights hallowean, bonfire night and then your angel day. everything is such a reminder that you are not here. You really loved hallowean and bonfire night. So many memories of you getting dressed up with jodie to go out trick or treating. I wish so much i didnt only have the memories, but had you. Me dad and jodie miss you so much, our lives will never be the same without you. You were our sunshine, you lit up our lives so much, your great big smile and happy laugh are gone from us, yes we have photo's but all we want is you. You were so hard to loose because you were our son, brother, our freind our heart our life. love you forever sweetheart, miss you always untill we are together again. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hello my frined... / Charlene (School Friend )Read >>
Hello my frined... / Charlene (School Friend )
Hi Jamie, just wanted to send a quick note to heaven for you. I always say its a shame heaven isnt just a phone call away because it would be so much easier if it could be like that. Iv never forgotten you Jamie. Keep watching over us all, i know your doing a great job of it. Saw you dad a few weeks ago in Huntington at the shop, he wouldnt of remembered me though.
Just found out a few weeks ago about Vicki Alexander dying. That was a shock definitly. Too many young people are been taken away from us that 3 people now under 20 who have died in my life and that is 3 too many as everyone deserves a life.
Miss you, will speak to you soon. Love Charlene x x x Close
We thought of you with love today, But that is nothing new. We thought about you yesterday, And the days before that, too.
We think of you in silence. We often speak your name.
Now all we have is memories, And your picture in a frame.
Your memory is our keepsake, With which we'll never part.
God has you in His Keeping. We have you in our Heart.
My dear nephew i miss you still, and never will stop missing you until i see you once again all my love always and forever auntie chelle & Becka xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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